was at uerm awhile ago to pass my reqts. the guard asked me what am i gonna do there. i said my purpose. then he told me, "nursing ba"?

hahahahaha. ako lang natawa. :p

weird kasi. 20 years old na ko. a professional (charing) tapos pinagkakamalan pa akong magfifirst year college pa lang. hahahahaha.

so, i was left at home earlier today and decided to make maki for tricia for the last time. boohoo. and i tried to take it to the next level. hahahaha. i made the inverted ones with the roe eggs and rice outside. it was sooooo hard. but i made quite pretty ones though.

am i making you hungry? hahahahaha.

so im surfing the net again and again and again and again since there's nothing better to do.  and i saw thisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

http://thesartorialist.blogspot.com/

The Sartorialist

Scott Schuman

i want to ooooooooooooooooooone.

anyway, i just finished reading the time traveler's wife. THE ENDING IS SO SAAAAD. I was on the verge of crying already! prolly one of the best books ive read in my 20 years of existence in dear earth. READER I RECOMMEND YOU READ IT, OKKAAAYY? then let's watch the movie on august 14, i think.

and, i went to the dentist awhile ago for OP. i asked him about something that's been bugging me for months now. a clicking sound i hear (i think it's my jaw) whenever i open my mouth really wide and whenever i am eating. he asked if it is painful and if it always clicks. i said, yes, at times it's painful. and i hear the clicking sound more often than not. then he told me that he's gonna refer me to a TMJ specialist and that i prolly have a TMJ dso. so i was thinking what TMJ means. i thought it was tonsillomaxillary joint. then i searched it. it was temporomandibular joint. AT LEAST I GOT THE JOINT RIGHT. hahaha. im so weird. anyway, he said i'll probably have an appliance that looks like a retainer.

here's what tmj dso. is. click here.

i have to go eat now. bye you :)

tricia just got back from her 3day stay in singapore (like a vacation in the province. haha.) to sign her scholarship in NUS.  and she got me a present:

ATONEMENT

by Ian McEwan

(im so ugly here. hahaha)

i loved the movie so much so i really wanted to read the book. i got disappointed cause when i asked the lady in powerbooks she told me that we don't have it in the Philippines! BUMMER! When tricia got back she told me she got me something. she was so excited. i thought it was something else cause my mom said to Tricia not to buy the book for me cause she has no money and if i want it really bad i need to pay her for it. so i said no cause i don't like to spend in the time of crisis like this (no allowance since after the board exam  and i'm saving up for something else). So there i am so happy.   Thank you my dear sister! Love you!

really feeling heavier as days go by. i was thinking of dieting but i just can't stop my mouth from eating what i want and when i want it so now i'm thinking of jogging. i even planned a route where i'll jog. hopefully i will be able to wake up early just to jog. just like early morning duty. swimming laps is a better option, but i don't have a swimming pool. boo-hoo.

since i don't have anything to think about now. i think about things for the future. like getting a job (since my dear mommy gave me 2months of hiatus). i envy kirabel. she just had her interview in mmc a while ago. anyway, i was thinking of applying in a photo store so i'll be able to learn how to really use the camera. when i was in high school, i asked the man in picture city if they hire students, he told me no, only college grads and those accepted will be given training for photography. sounds nice but working in picture city, for me, a college graduate of nursing, to work in an unrelated field is not too good. i think i also like to try working in the photo store where they take pictures of babies just like anne geddes. awww soo cuteee. oh i remembered when i was taking pictures of raphael's christening someone asked me if i want to work as a photographer as his partner. ngwek. i will be a nurse. then a doctor after sometime.

it's really hot now. same as Nate in Brazil (the testament). your shirt sticks at your chest because of too much sweat. good thing someone invented the efan and ac.

i'm thinking of going to singapore on my own with my own money.

i'll continue this tomorrow, i'm really sleepy.

dee told me to upload this for everyone who will take the nle on june 6 and 7. God Bless us!

Prayer Before Exams

Dear Jesus, today I will have my examinations.

You know how important they are to me.

So i am humbly asking Your gracious help and divine assistance.

I pray to You, my dear Jesus, please never let me panic nor get nervous, just let me be at ease and give my very best

Please never let me guess nor rely on pure luck, but enlighten my mind and let me think cleary.

Please never let me resort to chances nor to dishonesty, but let me work to the fullest of my ability.

I pray for Your guidance that as I think,

I may find the right solutions

I may be able to correctly answer the questions

I may solve those difficult problems.

I ask, O Lord, Your intercession, that as I write,

I may not be careless nor overconfident,

I may not be distracted but be more concentrated.

I may not be in a hurry nor take the exams to lightly.

Today, O my Jesus, I will take my examinations.

Let me, with Your help, give my best effort

Let me, because of You, receive the best and fruitful results.

AMEN.

ANXIETY RAISING? VERY. haha.

i have this super headache that bores a secret hole in my temple since this morning. lots of things in my mind right now.

in my 16 years in school, i had never experienced attending classes on my birthday. and now that i've graduated, it is when it will happen. haha. on may 30, i will be at rcap studying LMR with probably a very old professor whose voice would put me to stage IV of sleep.

(ewan ko ba parang walang sense tinatype ko ha. feeling ko di pantay ang csf fluid sa brain ko. bear with me, okay?)

since i don't have classes tomorrow, i decided to rest for a while and blog. one topic i'd like to talk about right now is my birthday wish list. i know i won't get all of what i want but i hope and pray that i'll get the last one.

Here's my list:

1.

Canon EF 50mm f 1.8 II

I've been wanting this for ages and i still don't have it. No time to shoot kasi. 3.5k lang siya. yun lang kasi kaya ko. hahahaha!

2.

Ipod Nano-Chromatic

Ewan ko. Gusto ko nito dati pa. Kaso parang sayang money.

3.

Hindi ko gusto angkinin ang mundo! hahaha. gusto ko ng ticket papuntang ibang country. hahaha. want to travel after the nle.

4.

to be with king and my family on may 30 (which is impossible)

5. and of course, the reason why i'm sacrificing now. what i want the most..

To pass the NLE and be a registered nurse.

BERI GUD.

PARADIJIM.

im now having coma vigil because of what our rcap coordinator said awhile ago. on my previous post i said that i was sure psych review will be fun. but because of whatever reason, Sir S. won't be the one who'll teach psych next week.

he was one of the reasons why i chose rcap. kung ano pa yung hinihintay ko yun pa yung nawala.

grrrr.

cooking master girl.

since wala ako sa mood magaral ngayong araw na to, i decided to use my time to make sushi for tatum and bunny. sort of a diversion since 41 days na lang yata before board exam.

jaraaaaan!

used my handy dandy phone for this pic kaya medyo sobrang labo lang nya.

kinalatan ni bunny ng ebiko yung iba pero okay naman  yummy.

tricia, mom said to make some for claire when she comes here. hiya ako baka sabihin nya. WHATTTAAAMESSSS! hihihi.

last night, i fell asleep early cause i was so drained. i got tired because of laughing my ass off from my 2 days of CHN review. hey, i did not just had fun but i learned a looot. got high post test scores in chn and pharma. i wish and pray this review can help me with my board exam. 

hopefully, LMR and Pedia will be fun too. i know psych will be.

Hypotensive Shock - one term to describe how it is right now. Four years of school plus 2 months of review to supplement us for the board exam. Only 7 sessions had passed and i feel bleeding all over from all the information from each topic. I feel so tired that by the end of the day, i need to put toothpicks (figuratively) on my eyelids to prevent them from falling.

I know i have to concentrate with studying but it is so hard. and there's this david cook and archuleta concert on May that i've been wanting to go to. OMG. OMG. OMG. i really want to go.

i'm not really good at it but whenever i draw, i feel relaxed and composed. i feel my problems go away. i am lost in my own world where i am the master.

here are some of it.
medium: pastel

too bad i can't find my paintings. :(

inverted bob

side bangs

watchathink?

back in high school, whenever i sleep at night i would always wake up at exactly 2am or minutes after 2 am. i dont know why, but i have the delusional thinking that maybe someone's waking me up so i change my room.

now, i fall asleep then wake up again early but not at the same time as before. seldom does it happen that i sleep throughout the whole night, it's only when i sleep so late so there's no more time to wake up so early. haha.

what's wrong with meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee? am i mentally ill? or is this still terminal insomnia?

awhile ago we went out for groceries and i saw a magazine of my crush chef rob from chef to go on the front cover with a girl chef beside her. turns out that that girl chef is her wife. huhuhuhu :( i'll just have to find my own chef "TO GO PLEASE".

then afterwards we went to town. instead of buying a lens for my camera i bought boots instead. and i guess it's so weird since it's near summer already then im buying boots. im so crazeeeee.

this article caught my attention.

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DANBURY, Conn. – On the day that Donald Peters died, he unknowingly provided financial security for his wife of 59 years and their family.

Peters bought two Connecticut Lottery tickets at a local 7-Eleven store on Nov. 1 as part of a 20-year tradition he shared with his wife Charlotte. Later that day, the 79-year-old retired hat factory worker suffered a fatal heart attack while working in his yard in Danbury.

On Friday, his widow cashed in one of the tickets: a $10 million winner which, in her grief over her husband's death, she had put aside and almost discarded before recently checking the numbers.

"I'm numb," Charlotte Peters, 78, said at Connecticut Lottery headquarters in Rocky Hill.

Donald Peters usually bought the tickets for 10 weeks at a stretch, so the winning ticket he bought Nov. 1 for the Dec. 2 drawing was among several that Charlotte Peters put aside as she, their three children and two grandchildren coped with his sudden death.

"I was in the grocery store and I had it checked and they told me I was a winner," she said. "I had no idea how much it was."

She said she thought she had won $6 million but was surprised to learn from lottery officials she'd won $10 million.

Charlotte Peters has 60 days to decide whether to take a $6 million pre-tax lump sum payment or stretch the winnings into 21 yearly payments of almost $477,300 each.

She does not yet know what she will do with the money.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090104/ap_on_re_us/lottery_legacy

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maybe he had a premonition. who knows?

no need for a last will and testament, eh?

only a few days before the year ends. time runs so fast. by april, i'll be graduating. by may, i'll be 20 years old already. time runs so fast.

but seriously...

do i look that old?

SERIOUSLY.

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A

 HAPPY NEW YEAR

TO EVERYONE!

i was excited to leave the retreat house since id be able to watch quantum of solace once i get back home but watching the movie was not a good idea cause i was so tired. i almost slept through half of the film. di ko naintindihan. hahaha.